Ok, so I'm 3 and 0 with this crap now! It's very frustrating, to feel so lonely while you're surrounded by so many people who love you, and to know the cause but not be able to do anything about it. I really thought I'd avoid it this time, with so many wonderful things going on, I thought somehow whatever hormonal changes that occur with me post pregnancy would somehow vanish with out any hint that they were ever there. For about a week right after we moved into the house, I thought I was over it, thought maybe it was just the "postpartum blues", but once the excitement of the move wore off and we settled back into a routine it set back in.
Tobin doesn't understand, hell I don't either! I just know I feel like crap! He stays away from me for the most part, probably for fear of getting his head bitten off! This is our 3rd baby, you'd think by now he'd expect it. LOL
I'm going this week to join a gym to start working out again hoping that will kick this depression in the ass. I really missed working out when I was pregnant, and now I just feel like a fat lump! I really diluted myself into thinking that because I only gained 27 lbs that I would be back into my pre-preggo clothes in a couple of months...WELL, it's been almost 2 mos and I'm NOT. I forgot how long after a c-section it takes your belly to go back to normal, and with each one it seems to get worse. I told Tobin, I don't think after this one it is ever going to go back to anything resembling "normal".
Well, that's all!
Hopefully I'll be feeling like myself again in a few weeks. At least this time I'm at home and only making my husband miserable and not an entire office full of co-workers. :-)
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